(Un)worthiness
In my Spiritual Director’s class, we’re reading a book titled, Soul Feast: An Invitation to the Christian Spiritual Life , by Marjorie Thompson. In chapter 3, she gave an example of prayer as conversation: Another exercise is to write a dialogue with a person from scripture. The following example imagines Jesus as a conversation partner; the writer is identifying with Simon Peter after the miraculous catch of fish (Luke 5:1-11). ME: Go away from me, Lord, for I am a sinful person! JESUS: Don’t be afraid; from now on you will be catching people. M: No, you don’t understand, Lord. You are holy, pure. I’m just a common person with a lot of weaknesses. I don’t belong with you. J: Remember, you didn’t choose me, I chose you. M: But why, Lord? I’m not worthy of you! J: Did I say you had to be worthy? I only ask you to follow me in trust. This really hit me. Hard. I’ve said this often — I feel so unworthy of my calling. When I was about to be ordained, I was given an oppo...